Friday, October 24, 2014

Silencing the Voices of Negativity

Jenna from the Blog 'Stop, Drop and Blog' wrote a post about the negative voices we hear in our head everyday and it inspired me to write down my own thoughts with the hope of being able to let go of the belief that I am less than. Here's a link to her blog if you'd like to read what she wrote.

The voices in my head are my subconscious talking to me and I listen.  Psychologist Pierre Janet argued that underneath the layers of critical thought functions of the conscious mind lay a powerful awareness that he called the subconscious mind.[1]   I'm taking a bit of a risk sharing my negative thoughts but I would venture to say anyone reading has their own set of thoughts they fight to not believe.  I've always been pretty transparent on my blog. This is me being very vulnerable.

What do I hear?

You have no purpose.

You are unloveable.

You are too emotional.

You're a bad mom.

You're a bad wife.

You're a bad friend.

Everything is your fault.

You do not meet expectations.

You are not enough.

You're ugly.

You deserve to be unhappy.

You're not a strong enough Christian.

You are selfish.

No one cares.

Give up.

You'll always be broken.

It's like a recording that is stuck on repeat.  The same things over and over again.  Even the healthiest people fall victim to this now and then.

So I am sitting here with these words that I have written and thinking that it kind of feels good to let them out!  I'm going to let them hang out on paper and refer back to them as I ask them to leave and replace them with affirming thoughts because our thoughts cause our feelings.  Now that I am aware of this, I can choose a better thought or feeling.

I'm not going to let these fears keep me from being happy and doing what I love.  I'm not going to let them keep me from giving and receiving love and friendship and acceptance.  They will not let me miss out on life.

What am I?

I am strong.

I am brave.

I am worthy.

I am loved.

I am imperfect and I am forgiven.

I have big emotions.

I am the best mom I know how to be.

I am cherished by my husband.

I am funny.

I am compassionate.

I try very hard and I rarely give up.

I know how to pick great friends.

I'm good at encouraging others

Perhaps you need to do a similar exercise?  Go for it!

You matter!

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Thursday, October 23, 2014

Beauty and Transformation

It's been a beautiful Autumn here in Minnesota.  The colors of the trees have been especially lovely this year.  I've been busy helping my husband with projects around the house.  He's back to work now and I am learning to fill my days with my own projects.

I've discovered that I love to paint.  Not paint as in art, but to physically paint.  We've painted almost every room in our house this summer and even the deck.  What I really love to paint is furniture.  I also like to follow and be inspired by people who have an eye for how to make beauty from something that isn't necessarily in a current state of beauty.  Then I become inspired to try to create something myself.
Below you will find two of my most recent favorite pieces of inspiration.  The first one you can find on facebook at Old World New Home and the second is also on Facebook at Girl in the Garage.

They're beautiful aren't they?

It got me thinking about how I love seeing the transformation that occurs and how I know God looks at me and sees the hidden beauty and potential within me.  He is transforming me everyday.  I truthfully feel old and don't exactly know at the moment how certain things are going to turn out in my life.

 Then there is this:
"He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!"  Then he said, "Write this down for these words are trustworthy and true." Revelation 21:5

And that my friends is my inspiration for today!