This time last year was our first Thanksgiving in Minnesota. I was deeply grieving the move and looking back, I was slowly sinking into major depression. I was trying to be happy because moving home to Minnesota where all of our family lives had been my dream for the past 19 years. My husband had given up a thriving medical practice that he loved to move because it was what I wanted. He was frustrated with me because I got what I wanted and yet I was miserable.
In our married life we have moved 4 times to 4 different states. We've lived away from family and therefore had created our own "families" each time we moved. When we moved to Minnesota from Indiana we had been there for 14 years. I had known my children's friends since most of them were born. We were very connected.
Upon returning to our hometown, I found that my family really didn't know me at all and my college friends had 19 years of shared experiences that I didn't have. All of which only added to my feeling of loneliness.
Fast forward through a year that has included financial strains, major depression, a lot of stress, one child undergoing drug treatment, 6 children learning their way in this new life, the loss of a beloved pet, some rocks in our marriage, a totaled vehicle and a miraculously unscathed child.
I am healthy and happy in a way I haven't been in quite sometime. My son is 4 1/2 months drug free and working hard to remain that way. My husband and I have worked through hurt and anger to find we have a new appreciation for each other. It's like being newlyweds only we have 6 kids! There are some really neat new friends in my life which is amazing because for me, friends are like air, I must have them! I'm getting to know my family and they me. It's wonderful to have them nearby. I am so thankful for all they have done for me this past year.
It's amazing the difference one year can make! I feel so appreciative of the people and the things around me. I had a strange dream last night but perhaps it will help you understand how I am seeing things. In my dream, I was pointing out the beautiful things around me and people were laughing at me because they were just ordinary everyday things, but to me they seemed amazingly beautiful!
This year when I give thanks, it will be for my husband, family, friends, health, children and safety of my family. I really hope it doesn't sound trite. The depth of my thankfulness is so great that I won't be able to do it justice with words, but God knows my heart.