Kat’s mom and grandma and Kristen were there shortly after the babies were born. I will never forget that Kat’s mom looked at me and said "Congratulations". I was struck by how incredibly hard and very selfless that word was. Here was grandma telling me, a virtual stranger congratulations on the birth of her grandbabies! Wow! There was so much emotion in that room. That and a whole lot of love.
|The family and Chantel (who's like family)meeting the babies|
|Sterling doing double duty|
|Spencer bonding with Rya|
|Teary-eyed happy Hannah|
The whole thing drained me emotionally. Kevin could not possibly understand what it was like for me. I got angry at him for leaving me at the hospital alone to care for both Kat and the babies. I needed a place to release all of the emotions of the past 3 days and he ended up being my target. I later had to apologize to him because we were all doing the best we could during this time. He didn't have the experience I had with adoption and he just didn't know his place and this was so out of his realm of comfort. I had expected things of him without communicating. Poor guy, he was struggling too with all that was happening.
I was grieving for Kat. I was happy for us. I felt guilty for being happy when she was so sad.